is the word 'diary' better than the word 'blog'? probably not. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- alone with a cat = blogging again. I�m housesitting for a friend in Haverford. She has a really nice house and lovely gardens. The idea was that Gus and I (along with our cat, Thurgood) would camp out here for a couple of weeks while R is out of town and take care of things while enjoying the green suburban quiet. However, as it turns out, family issues have taken Gus away and I am stuck here alone in quiet green suburbia without much to do except worry a bit about whether my black thumb will be a scourge upon these lovely gardens. I guess these are good conditions for working, since I really do have work to do, and there isn�t much to distract me. But I had been looking forward to some time with Gus. He�s doing what he should be doing right now, so I�m not complaining. But I miss him. So far this is how our summer has been. I was in SF for three weeks. Then we were supposed to spend ten days on a car trip, part work and mostly play. That got screwed up and I ended up in Toronto for a week without him. Now I�m here, alone. And so on. I�ve barely seen him this summer! He and I are both frustrated by this. But we did have a few really fun days between Toronto and here, including a baseball game and fun night out for his birthday, and some finely bbq�d meals here in our house-sit before he had to leave. Today was a big day here on the main line. I went to 7-11 to get cash from the Citibank machine, then I went to buy Thurgood�s special cat food from a veterinary hospital, after which I went to the gym at Haverford. Later I did some cooking, and got a fair amount of reading done. I would have reached my for-the-day reading goal, but I decided that instead of doing that I would call Evany on the telephone. And I am glad I did! We talked for 45 minutes or so and it was good to catch up and hear about what�s going on in so-much-is-about-to-happen land. I miss her! Then I watched the The Bachelorette for reasons that are as yet unclear to me. Man, what a ridiculous mass of refusal of the conditions of love that show is. But I got to talk to Evany! Among other things, we talked about aging, choices that you make and choices that get made for you, and the hanging-over-one�s-head-thing that is blogging. By which I mean something like what I said in yesterday�s blog entry: sometimes I look at my history of blogging (or web-diary-writing�apparently I have given in and started using the word �blog,� and have even granted it verb status, ugh) and wish I were still coming up with entertaining or funny or silly or smart entries more often. But, like I said, it was loneliness that made all of that possible. And I am less lonely now, thanks to Gus. But one�s own established blog, and the people who read it, are still there, hanging over a person. I often have ideas for writing, and I jot them down, or work them out in my head, and then the time never arrives where the writing gets done. It�s not that I have fewer ideas now. It�s that I don�t give them the time for development in writing. It�s partly that there is a kind of cycle where, for a time writing is easy for me and it flows forth like pepsi from a well-maintained soda fountain, only to be blocked at some point by an obstacle in the tubing so that the writing/pepsi flow slows down and also somehow seems a bit off in flavor� until the tubing finally gets cleaned by some mysterious unseeable force and I am back at writing again� it�s also partly the distractions of twitter and facebook taking up the morning time I used to devote to blogging, but it�s mostly that I�m less lonely. In the morning I talk to Gus and we laugh or cringe about things in the news and on various websites. So in this case, in some measure, writing less is a good thing. But I still wish I were writing more. And maybe this will be a week when I write more, for work (aka articles I need to write and classes I need to prepare) and for play (aka the blog), since here I am in the silence of green suburbia, alone with a cat. Again! 10:39 p.m. - July 06, 2009 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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